Ever-Longing

Ever-Longing for an Elusive Certainty

2024, silver gelatin prints

My work explores my sense of being in place as I move through time — where I’ve been, where I am now, and in this work, the uncertainty regarding where I might be in the future. This series examines the consciousness of the seeker within, ever-longing for an elusive certainty, in response to a reconciliation of loss

.Aging, and what that means, has been a surprise. As I sit in my life’s late afternoon, with what once was existing no longer, I feel vulnerable in the loss of my illusions. I find myself ever watchful, an attempt to remedy the discomfort of the present, and to satisfy the longing for stability. What lies ahead? In what direction should I turn? These questions simmer within, directing my gaze as I move through space and time.

Though I don’t believe I am alone in experiencing the confusion and unease of realizing an unexpected and unfamiliar loss, I believe this search for clarity is one each must navigate alone. I hope the loneliness which haunts this work is tempered by whispers of hope, inherent in the gaze of any seeker.

This series documents the consciousness of acceptance of an unfolding loss, and hope’s tender turn toward the unknown, yet to be revealed.